Neon Ghosts

 Hope is a thing we dreamt about

If only we knew where we’d be now

I see your face in every sleep

Reckless dreams of discovery

As shadows fade and lights invade 

The space between our faces collide

I read your eyes, you read my mind

We’re both one and the same

No one knows how to escape

From these neon ghosts

Been searching for home in a soul

There’s one I know makes me whole

Been trying to escape it on purpose

But fate tied us too tight, we know this

If I’ve kept you behind the glass this long

Maybe as you stare back, it’s where we belong

Break in case of emergency

When I can’t contain all of me

As shadows fade and lights invade 

The space between our faces collide

I read your eyes, you read my mind

We’re both one and the same

No one knows how to escape

From these neon ghosts

Love Always, 

Lainey

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2020

Funny how we don’t really notice

Stars without the night

Darkness without the light

I want so badly to drive the distance

But the resistance always wins

Tell me why I didn’t really know this

How we’re stronger after we break

And love is wiser after the toll it takes

I want so badly to drive the distance 

But the resistance always wins

When I got on the road on a misty night

Had I known it was gonna be that kinda drive

Guided by the moon

Hyper-focused in a tunnel of headlights

Had I known it was gonna be you

Then it starts getting colder

I pull to the shoulder

Drew a heart on the window with your name

Turned around in slow motion the way I came

Had I known it was gonna be you

I feel you calling me through the stars

Knowing one day it’ll all be ours

Now get back in your car

Funny how we didn’t notice

Stars without the night

Darkness without the light

I want so badly to drive the distance

Love Always,

Lainey

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Clarity

I’ve tried to convince myself

It wasn’t this

It was something else

But it breaks me to break these walls

Another fall and rejected help

Cause I’m full of it when I feel so empty

Standing right here where I left me

Yeah,

We’re strong when we have to be

And when we’re weak

It’s a moment of clarity

To wake from this lucid dream 

Where everything means nothing

Unless you give it meaning 

In this life you seek

I’m told to just let it go

Well they would

If they knew what I know

But I’m here can you hear me now?

Silence is loud when the lights are low

And I can’t see my hands in front of me

When listening is deceiving 

Yeah,

We’re strong when we have to be

And when we’re weak

It’s a moment of clarity

To wake from this lucid dream 

Where everything means nothing

Unless you give it meaning 

In this life you seek

I’ve tried to convince myself

It wasn’t this

It was something else

There are guides behind the signs

And our time is not our own

Between free will and the unknown

Be authentic before our cover’s blown

But it breaks me to break these walls

Another fall and rejected help

Cause I’m full of it when I feel so empty

But this moment of weakness brings clarity 

Love Always,

Lainey

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Off the Page

Every word I swallowed

I wrote in my mind

Every word I followed

I was just a step behind

I used to be in someone else’s story

But I jumped off the page

And rewrote another for me

No damsel needing to be saved

I can carve your name on paper

How you had stars in your eyes

And I’ll save the rest for later

My story comes with a price 

But you can read about me

And all the battles I’ve won

How I learned to dust my knees

And how I dreamed beneath the sun

With lavender pillow thoughts

And magnolia feathered downs 

The moon untied all my knots 

And sang my written words aloud 

No more silence in between 

No more waiting to be seen

My story has now been redeemed

In a song far outside this dream  

Love Always,

Lainey 

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Sky and Sea

Reach up to the sky

Try and hold on tight

Watch the clouds slip through my fingers 

Your voice lingers but I don’t remember what you said

Too busy thinking of when we met

Didn’t see you already left

Too many eyes have cried over this

But why does it feel so different?

It’s hard to say who drifted away

When we were caught up in the wind

I tried so hard to learn to fly

When all you could do was swim 

Heaven’s guiding light 

Find me, lead me home

Numb to goodbyes

When I’m left here alone

Too many eyes have cried over this

But why does it feel so different?

Reach up to the sky

Try and hold on tight

Watch the clouds slip through my fingers

Love Always, 

Lainey

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Ricochet

You pull me in

With your magnetism 

And when time delays

We ricochet 

Electrtofying

Lighting up every sky

And when time delays

We ricochet 

Of all the constellations lines

Yours and mine are tied

Specks of stars in our veins

Illuminate our skin

I see you and you see me

Where do you end and I begin? 

But gravity pulls me down

When you pull away

An endless pit without a ground

Across the milky way 

There’s a lapse in time

If it exists

As our light unties

A silent guide who won the fight 

Lost in the abyss

The same two stars

In different parts of time

Somehow fall together now

When time’s a loop not a line 

Two lost souls are found 

Of all the constellations lines

Yours and mine are tied

Can we hide

Outside the lines?

...But when time delays 

We ricochet

Love Always, Lainey

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Lotus

Grab the dirt beneath your hands

And throw it at the sky

Just when you think you can’t 

Get up and defy 

The voices they feed you 

Dust your knees though they bleed

And take a deep breath

Don’t you hide when they seek

Something they’ll regret

With their silver spoons

Rise against the odds

And look them in the eyes

When they expect a fall

Watch their script revise 

To spout more lies on cue 

Some things were hard to swallow

Some things made you choke

Some things were blindly followed

Some things were just a joke

But they didn’t know 

When you kept your mouth closed

They’d get another dose

Giving themselves the most

But you’re the one who grew

Guess they didn’t notice

They’re the ones who lose

As you rise up like the lotus 

Leaving them confused

Your hands hold petals now

Though your knees are scabbed 

Your roots push up a muddy crown

An anomaly they can’t grasp

When they can’t feed you 

Love Always, Lainey

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The Price

When the hope is low

And the doubts are high

And questions of why are left unheard

Their unspoken words hurt the most, I know

But that doesn’t mean I don’t try

Good little girls do as their told

Smile, nod and stay in that perfect mold

But I won’t let that define me

Cross the line

Reveal the system 

See the light on the other side

Even when most won’t listen
There’s riot in the quiet 

With their power of deceit
It comes with hidden receipts
And we find it in obituaries 

They put a price on our lives

There’s always a price

With their backs turned away

See their hate grow strong

Make moves, capture their eyes

See what’s left of humanity inside

Find that voice beneath the fear
Even if just one person hears
Stand up don’t back down
Heal my own wounds in this gown
Now that I know how

Cross the line

Reveal the system 

See the light on the other side

Even when most won’t listen
There’s riot in the quiet 

With their power of deceit
It comes with hidden receipts
And we find it in obituaries 

They put a price on our lives

There’s always a price

When the lights go dim and faith is lost

Stay true to the heart at any cost

Cause I know, there’s more to this

Rewrite my fate

Sacrifice ignorance and hate
It’s worth the price 

To see the light on the other side

Love always,

Lainey

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Pandemic

Sometimes it seems harder to breathe

And days like this may seem so bleak 

When patience is a thing no one has

But we see the same sky through the glass

Can you see the light?

Don’t you worry, it’s gonna be alright

Nights become days and sleep is off

Dreams become hard but the pillow’s soft 

But when you look to the sky right now

Remember there’s light behind the clouds

Don’t confuse your freedom when you feel confined

And don’t forget how to shine from the inside

Hold on just a little bit more

Hold onto what we came here for

Dig up the strength I know you have

Don’t let your will get cut in half

When we feel weak, look to the sky

All I’m asking is that we try

Where do you go with your eyes closed?

Didn’t you know you’re not alone?

Did you thank a hero in disguise?

The ones no one looked at twice 

What more could we ask for?

When love comes in different forms

Can you see it now?

Can you see them now?

Wait for the fog to lift

High above the mountain cliffs

As you’re safely wrapped warm in bed

Let the sun gently kiss your forehead 

You are never alone

When you’re safe at home

Sometimes it seems harder to breathe

When we question what we can’t see

We might not recognize the strength we have

But we see the same sky through the glass 

Can you see the light?

Don’t you worry, it’s gonna be alright 

Love Always,

Lainey

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Labyrinth

Careful the crown 

that buries treasure

barely in the ground

and measures it against 

the size of our eyes

There’s a restlessness in the air

stare at the smokescreens 

and do nothing 

as the walls change around us

surrounding us with ivy and envy

rose colored glass on the ceiling 

Indulge in every sense

in a trance we dance all night

lost track of time

don’t know where it went

the glass was too dense

it echoed back things

 that didn’t make sense

telling us to fly when they clipped our wings

See the fire

in their eyes 

each from a different past

on this path trapped in this myth

we call a labrynth

one day we’ll break out of it

 Careful the crown

that buries treasure

barely in the ground

and measures it against 

the size of our eyes

Love Always,

Lainey

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