Halo of Stars

How hallow is your heart
After you give it away
And they take take take it
Wrecklesly?

How violent is your silence
Rattled between your ears
As they say say say things
Carelessly?

Move your lips
Your words trapped behind your tongue
Break the mold when nothing fits
Want it all, end up with none
Don’t give up now when you’ve come this far
Say what you really want

Trace each scar with your eyes
Memorizing each battle you fought and won
Let the ghosts that haunt you die
Take them out with your holy gun
Guided by the stars we’re born under
Protected by a halo of stars

They say it’s destiny
They say it’s meant to be
Why won’t I surrender to fate
And float on clouds of faith
And fall in line like everyone else?
Guess it’s not for me

How big is the mess we make
After we gave our all to create it
As we make make make love
Intentionally?

How deep can we fall in this galaxy
After we spent centuries to end up here
As we lay lay lay here
Endlessly?

We say it’s destiny
We say it’s meant to be
Why am I surrendering to fate
Floating on these clouds of faith
And falling into someone else?

Trace each scar with your eyes
Memorizing each battle you fought and won
Embrace the mess you tried to hide
Guided by the stars we’re born under
Protected by a halo of stars 

  a halo of stars

Love Always,
Lainey

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In This Lifetime

I know this place

I've been lost here before

How much of this life is already decided?

How much do we own?

When there's comfort in a heartbeat

and find someone called home

There's life between the pauses

there's beauty in loss we can't see

I tried to bury the maps written by stars

covered in dust from lifetimes ago

but what's meant to be will be

and there's comfort in knowing we're never alone

sometimes I feel so empty handed

trying not to take this life for granted

trying so hard

and sometimes it's harder to speak into reality

hoping maybe it's all a dream

or maybe it's just me

lost in another lifetime looking for signs

I'm trying to get used to change

a test of strength and humility

but at some point it all goes away

and we're left more confused than ever before

fighting not to let the world change us

holding tight to our heart half torn

I guess the test is to stay true

through the painful bumps and bruises

radiate your light through the dark

and use this life to find the ones looking for you

who knew you in all these lifetimes and the next

the ones we never truly lose

Love Always,

Lainey

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