Changing Skies

How many times did the sun come back?

Sunrises and sunsets came and went

How many do we have left?

How many prayers have we sent

To keep us together?

I’ve watched the colors of the sky change

I’ve watched your eyes change with the moon 

Death gripping each moment

And it’s gone too soon

It’s a blessing and a curse to live so well

Trapped in hell as these fires rise

Everything we know keeps changing

Pulled into the tide we ride

We seek comfort in familiar things

Wish for strength to weather the storm

Hope and pray, cry and scream

But change makes us transform

Does the night sky show us its scars?

Beams of light from each dying star

Speaks to us in blinks of an eye

You sleep, but sleep is hard

The dawn will come and bathe us in light

Trapped between lucid dreams and reality

We keep the stars in our wounds

They heal us from the inside out as we see...

Love means there’s no finality 

Love Always,

Lainey

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Golden Hour

Break the chains that kept you
Played it safe for too long
They claimed to know you better
Knew every letter but not your name

Held tight to the ropes we walked on
Stumbling and not looking down
Burning beneath our feet
Don’t know defeat as we meet the dawn

No one knows the fires we walked through
To get to where we are
Empty shells and bulletproof
The stars above refuse to move
Like we do

Fall into the light
When the dark swallowed you whole
Face the dark with the sun at your back
Reclaim
Rename
Your soul

Recognize those eyes
You’re not a stranger anymore
The setting sun calls to you
In waves
These days
There’s more

Losing light as the golden hour comes
Unraveled, undone as gold turns to night
But the stars they shine
And speak through your eyes

Held tight to the ropes we walked on
Stumbling and not looking down
Burning beneath our feet
Don’t know defeat as we meet the dawn


Love Always,
Lainey

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Crooked Crown

There’s a depth in your eyes

Where you broke

And let in the light 

Drown in the dark

Swallow the hollows of their words

They mean well

But you can’t be heard

Years are just years

Time is a lie

Don’t blame their fear

They don’t know what it’s like

Can you trust the ground you walk on?

Or your hands to pull you up?

No one’s wrong

When their versions of love have changed

Change is constant 

Ask the ones who named

Each constellation

 Maps were never the same

Our souls can’t lie

Or hide the truth

No matter how hard we try

Win or lose

So where will we end up?

Will we rise or drown?

Embrace this new love

And wear a crooked crown

Love Always, 

Lainey 

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Recurring Dreams

There’s a light

Hiding in the night

Weaves between the blinds to your eyes

In our forsaken paradise

I see the look of fear

It’s so clear 

Fighting the fantasy we have here

So far but so near

Awake from the dream

You’ve had about eighteen hundred times

Wondering, what tomorrow brings?

But can’t see past these vertical lines

These black and white stripes you’re imagining

Why do you give in?

Living in sin

Hiding the fire under your skin

Whenever you’re with him

Awake from the dream

Recurring scenes 

Fabricated truth beyond what it seems

Just tell me what you mean

I gaze in your eyes

Just like old times

The memories drift across the sky

In our forsaken paradise

Love Always,

Lainey

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Later

I’ve stopped looking for the signs
If it doesn’t sit right find another seat
Maybe it’s just me but I’ve rolled up my sleeves
My hearts’ not for you to see
and I’m not apologizing 

It’s not my fault you can’t sleep
Your haunted dreams don’t cross mine
Maybe it’s just me but I feel wild and free
Keep your greed
I see you turning green 

Count all the things you have
And it’s still not enough
You’ve got it so rough with that fake laugh
Desperately trying to cover it up 
Stay off my path

I’ve learned to spot the red flags
I don’t mean to brag but I feel smarter now
Dont worry about me I’m allowed
Your opinions are such a drag
Leave them in a bag and smoke them later



Love Always, 
Lainey

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Ancient Wars

 

Break these deadbolts off the frame

Save this fortress from the damned

Rose quartz bones make us insane

Ash from flames paint us glam

And... You'd never know

 

Dust settles with the sun rise

Another great day for war

When light lives the shadow dies

Throw it out and hit the floor

And... Watch the sky glow

 

This one-sided war left burns

Flash forward

And a few wrong turns

Predator and prey are one and the same

Curse and pray despite restraint

And breathe out my name

 

I should go

Give up control

Talk to my soul like you've known it before

Ground me and these shallow roots

Fix this broken parachute

Drown in these eyes and find yours

Yeah, you've known it before

 

Once upon a lifetime

I was told of an ancient prayer

Truth bleeds between the lies

Sacred magic drifting through the air

And... You'd never know

 

Which life was your crime?

Your innocence proves, not this one

But you're paying the price

I forgive you, let karma be done

And... Watch the sky glow

 

Don't be fooled

No one's excluded

Take your bulletproof light

And pick a side

 

This one-sided war left burns

Flash forward

And a few wrong turns

Predator and prey are one and the same

Curse and pray despite restraint

And breathe out my name

breathe out my name

 

Love Always,

Lainey

 

 

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Alibi for Goodbye

Light a candle

say a prayer

wings will take you higher

as high as you cared

such a fine line

bask in the light

don't get caught in the fire

there's a point past pain

when all that remains went away

in two places at once

 bury it with a laugh

an optimistic attack of white lies

an alibi for goodbye...

when goodbye is a crime

Read my face

I can't hide my thoughts

or is it what I want you to see?

looks like they all forgot

just as I suspected

hope to be neglected

another slate wiped clean

there's a point past pain

when all that remains went away

in two places at once

 bury it with a laugh

an optimistic attack of white lies

an alibi for goodbye...

when goodbye is a crime

can't function head on

so I pretend you're still here

 when the storm's this calm

maybe it's a dream this time

 another alibi for goodbye

bury it with a laugh

an optimistic attack of white lies

a lullaby of alibis

lullaby

lullaby

an alibi

alibi

 for goodbye...

Love Always,

Lainey

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Nashville

There’s a history beneath the skyline

Of downtown city lights

It’s like I’m walking in her footsteps 

And I’ve traveled back in time

I could hear her laugh a mile away

And see her eyes light up the sky

She was happy and carefree

And didn’t know love was so close by

Flash forward I’m standing where she stood

As her voice echoes in the streets

A new place I’ve never been before

But there’s a sense of familiarity 

Walk past my reflection in a window

And I see her standing in my place

I put my hand up to the glass

And I’m looking at her face

We follow music notes down Broadway

Drinking whiskey and moonshine

Talking and laughing with everyone

Like somehow frozen in time

The night was clear the stars were out

We brought the California weather

Caught up in the moment and then I blinked

And found a single white feather

One place connecting two worlds

The city of music speaks in many ways

There’s such a strong connection here

Like we’re on the same page 

Like mother like daughter time is infinite

There’s no distance in time and space 

Following a trail of feathers

Of her footsteps in this place 

Mesmerized by the city’s vibes

Though the bright lights and busy streets

In the midst of the competing bands 

I know she’s right here with me 

Love always, 

Lainey



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Home in the Shadow

for a second

I studied your eyes

that's how you got me

we were exposed

truth lies behind your skies

you taught me how to see

 

walk past the signs

that hit us in the face

this world is way too small

taste the oceans

left without a trace

 why can't we have it all?

 

we don't need their eyes

 undressing our flaws

we're running out of time

as they conceal their claws

pretend to believe their lies

with our smiles and nods

 

it'll buy us time

they can't afford to keep

truth is coming

 

moonbeams find us

in the middle of the road

there's comfort in the night

don't be afraid

find a home in the shadow

where they can't take our light

…they can't take our light

 

 

 

Love Always,

Lainey



 

 

 

 

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Phoenix

There used to be a story

that brought you to life

and through all the complications

the stars perfectly aligned
 

then the sky would get dark again

there'd be another storm to pass

and all the times you felt like giving up

you still see the beauty life has
 

then grief forced you strong

you're given credit like it's a choice

and all the times you want to scream out loud

you suddenly lose your voice
 

time now makes no sense

is it a circle or straight line?

or does it go up and down

like the heartbeats left behind?
 

but dreams exist to give us hope

and remind us of lessons learned

and through all the ash and soot from this

we still rise up from these burns
 

exhale and let the story shift

there's no limit to change

let the phoenix rise above these flames

let the stars rearrange
 

there's one thing that doesn't fail

and it grows stronger each year

the love we share is infinite

the fire singed away the fear
 

and this story that brought you back to life

will be sung in songs and written down

and told by all who know it too

 of how to earn a crooked crown
 

there will always be beauty

there will always be you

rise through love and flames, my love

and life begins to feel brand new


 

Love Always,

Lainey

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