Moon Stone

There’s a dying match 

Didn’t quite catch the wick

Don’t know what’s in the dark

But maybe it’s how I like it

I close my eyes to see

But you can find my eyes

If you close yours too

An hour past midnight

We start to see things 

Like secrets of what’s next

Some we don’t believe though 

But some can’t dodge the mess

The moon turned me to stone

It does that sometimes

It’s how I step outside myself

When there’s shadow there’s light 

When the healing hurts

More than the wound

Take a little detour

From these cycles we go through

There’s a dying match 

Didn’t quite catch the wick

Don’t know what’s in the dark

But maybe it’s how I like it

Love Always,

Lainey

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Cracks of Light

Ocean salt falls between the cracks

Burns before it heals

Numb to the feel

Unfamiliar but it’s nice

Earth shakes the ground breaks

The world is upside down

Don’t look both ways

Maybe it’s just a phase

So many days I’ve lost count

The sun falls with the sky 

Another night to do this right

At least that’s what I tell myself

A truth I’ll never tell

It’s just not worth the fight 

That’s the part that stays in the dark

Can’t hide the broken pieces

When light bleeds through them

Don’t look for patterns tracing these lines

You’ll get lost in what’s yours and mine

Love always,

Lainey

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Follow the Echo

There’s an echo in my dreams

I can’t drown out

Even when it makes no sound

Telling me to wait

That it’s all gonna be okay

Another slate wiped clean after midnight

Why relive each day, each life

Inside such a cluttered mind

Barely making it out alive

Because you do what they tell you to

And the echo gets restless

Escapes my eyes, water into light

I was never a good liar anyways

So here I stand barely holding on

But I’ve never felt so strong

We’ve been kept in the dark

They didn’t know we could close our eyes

To see where the light will lead

To an ocean deep or a cliff high and steep

We start over and let the phoenix rise

Why relive each day, each life

Inside such a cluttered mind 

Barely making it out alive 

Because you do what they tell you to 

Look at me and tell me what you see

And I’ll tell you what you need to know

Fears projected on the walls reflect

Break them down, they don’t serve or protect

Trust that fear will guide us where we need to go

Why relive each day, each life

Inside such a cluttered mind

Barely making it out alive 

Because you do what they tell you to 

Love Always,

Lainey

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Weight of Gold

Ancient lullabies sung at night

Tell us of tales in search of lights

Maps and treasures filled with gold

For those who venture the unknown

Who dare dig up the lonely earth

In hopes the future holds its worth?

The weight of gold

Might be too heavy to hold

But these songs sound so enticing

And the way it shines is so inviting

A siren’s song leads sailors to tombs

It sparkles and shines and grabs you too

Lead by your eyes blinding your mind 

Blocks out your heart leaving you blind

But you don’t see the irony here

The gold you seek is never near

Oh the things you’ll do to hold it close

Oh the things you’ve done no one knows

But let’s pretend we know your secrets

And all you said to us to try and keep it 

These pictures you paint aren’t as they seem

And the hands you’ve used aren’t as clean

The weight of gold

Seems too heavy to hold

You see me here with empty hands

A freedom you may never understand

You pity my lack of treasured gifts

But clench that gold around your wrists

I use two hands to climb and feel free

Your hands are bound at 90 degrees

But you don’t see the irony here

The gold you seek is never near 

You can dig and dig but it’ll never be enough
Not compared to all you’ve lost
Time is spent looking at the ground
While it’s tying us up and weighing us down
Reclaim your life and look it in the eyes
The most expensive things don’t have a price
When the weight of gold
Is too heavy to hold

Love Always, 

Lainey

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Warm Like Gray

Lost my mind but I don’t mind

It just so happens all the time

But that’s okay

Warm and bright like the color gray

As I tip toed on cotton clouds

These doubts I can sedate 

I’ve never been this far before

Far from these outlines on the floor

It’s not what I thought

Numb from fears I’ve fought

And I’ve began to see more color

In every other breath I’ve caught

And I don’t need your sympathy 

Or any other look you give to me

I need to try

When all these truths became a lie

Warm and bright like the color gray

Colorblind in a rainbow light

And maybe I was wrong

Held on for far too long

And now I’m free

As we trapped our secrets behind our teeth

We grieved and shed our skin

Destined to redeem this new heart beat

Love Always,

Lainey

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Sky Between the Clouds

Soft are the whispers that fell through the sky

In a language no one else can hear but you

Listen closely and hold out your hands

But you can’t hold on to what you want to 

In a world trying to force what it can’t 

Close your eyes and tell me what you see

Do you see all the colors of the rain?

Or maybe the dark swallowed the light?

The thoughts that haunt were never drained

Flooded through your waking dreams each night

But as the sky speaks in horizon shades

It pulls you to the edge to dance with the tide

Back and forth in circles and squares 

Start to hear the sky speak through your eyes

Feeling exposed cause they know you care

Don’t confuse flashes of light with pride

The names we make can change at any time

It takes a lot to stand against the crowd

Only you can read the signs in plain sight

And see the sky between the clouds 

Love Always,

Lainey

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Matters of the Mind

What you see is what you want

Chase things that haunt your dreams

Fill the cracks with broken glass

Shines when the light hits just right

Carry what you thought you left behind

In matters of the mind 

Sleep with one eye open

Let go of hope in expectations

Cause you can’t even control yourself

Tame the beast at the end of the leash

Stare it in the eyes on repeat

Inhale, exhale, release

Found home in a strange place

The comfort of a clean slate when we awake

Every time we try and resist this

The concept of time doesn’t exist

The things we hide surface as a lie 

In matters of the mind

And through the dust it’s clear

The answers were always here

Focus on the here and now

Surrounded by the life we made

You wear the crown, I’ll wear the cape

There’s only one way out, one escape 

Lessons make us who we are

If it wasn’t hard we wouldn’t know

How much we needed to grow

Take advantage of where we are

Open your eyes after being so blind

In matters of the mind 

Love Always, 

Lainey

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Changing Skies

How many times did the sun come back?

Sunrises and sunsets came and went

How many do we have left?

How many prayers have we sent

To keep us together?

I’ve watched the colors of the sky change

I’ve watched your eyes change with the moon 

Death gripping each moment

And it’s gone too soon

It’s a blessing and a curse to live so well

Trapped in hell as these fires rise

Everything we know keeps changing

Pulled into the tide we ride

We seek comfort in familiar things

Wish for strength to weather the storm

Hope and pray, cry and scream

But change makes us transform

Does the night sky show us its scars?

Beams of light from each dying star

Speaks to us in blinks of an eye

You sleep, but sleep is hard

The dawn will come and bathe us in light

Trapped between lucid dreams and reality

We keep the stars in our wounds

They heal us from the inside out as we see...

Love means there’s no finality 

Love Always,

Lainey

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Golden Hour

Break the chains that kept you
Played it safe for too long
They claimed to know you better
Knew every letter but not your name

Held tight to the ropes we walked on
Stumbling and not looking down
Burning beneath our feet
Don’t know defeat as we meet the dawn

No one knows the fires we walked through
To get to where we are
Empty shells and bulletproof
The stars above refuse to move
Like we do

Fall into the light
When the dark swallowed you whole
Face the dark with the sun at your back
Reclaim
Rename
Your soul

Recognize those eyes
You’re not a stranger anymore
The setting sun calls to you
In waves
These days
There’s more

Losing light as the golden hour comes
Unraveled, undone as gold turns to night
But the stars they shine
And speak through your eyes

Held tight to the ropes we walked on
Stumbling and not looking down
Burning beneath our feet
Don’t know defeat as we meet the dawn


Love Always,
Lainey

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Crooked Crown

There’s a depth in your eyes

Where you broke

And let in the light 

Drown in the dark

Swallow the hollows of their words

They mean well

But you can’t be heard

Years are just years

Time is a lie

Don’t blame their fear

They don’t know what it’s like

Can you trust the ground you walk on?

Or your hands to pull you up?

No one’s wrong

When their versions of love have changed

Change is constant 

Ask the ones who named

Each constellation

 Maps were never the same

Our souls can’t lie

Or hide the truth

No matter how hard we try

Win or lose

So where will we end up?

Will we rise or drown?

Embrace this new love

And wear a crooked crown

Love Always, 

Lainey 

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